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{September 11, 2009}   First day of school


Wow what a week! Tuesday my oldest daughter started high school, my son started middle school, and my third daughter started second grade.  Today my youngest daughter started kindergarten.  I remember when I first realized I was a single mom again 5 years ago. I was holding my baby C she was just a couple months old.  I knew my marriage was over and I had a big job ahead of me.

Four children all under the age 8. It was pretty overwhelming at times and it hasn’t been easy but I had a goal. My dad used to encourage me a lot and say things like “Inch by Inch it’s a cinch. Mile by Mile its a trial”.  He really taught me to have short term and long term goals.  One of my long term goals was to be “happy and together” when my youngest made it to kindergarten.  I knew that going through a nasty divorce at 28, being stalked and financially abused by my ex, not receiving any child support, having my mom fight off breast cancer, and dealing with major depression, post-traumatic stress disorder, and ADD, would mean a few years of  challenging emotions and physical/health problems.  So on my walk back from dropping off my two little girls to school this morning it felt so good to realize I have achieved a life goal. I do feel happy and I’m much more together now.  I love my family life I have a great partner who loves my children and me very much. I love my job and look forward to going to work because I like helping others and forming relationships.  Working with the elderly has been a very positive experience for me.  And I have goals still and am finally seeing the results of hard work.  I also learned how to play again and enjoy nature with my children.   I lead a healthy lifestyle for the most part now eating healthy food and drinking lots of water.  I used to “go through the motions” of life doing what I had to do.  Now I practice mindfulness and looking for ways to  enjoy even the mundane tasks.  You know “smelling the roses..”  Now I’m not saying I have a perfect life but this is what I want.

I am so grateful to all of those who have encouraged and motivated me through the tough times.  My parents, Aunt Margery, Khrissie, and countless friends.  Thank you so much! Also a very big hug and thank you to my oldest children T and S.  They have been the biggest  help to me!   Ok I have to end this now I have mommy chores to do…


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